So Many Blessings

Today is the 4th anniversary of the death of my dad.  I am so lucky to know that I will see him again one day.  I feel his love today as I took a HPT.  It had been 42 days since my last period.  My body doesn't like HPTs and I am happy to say that today the HPT loved me.  Two pink lines up in the time period.  The second line is faint but a line is a line.  I will test again tomorrow with a better test but I am 5weeks 5 days pregnant!!!

Laughing on the Outside, Crying on the Inside

My heart is totally breaking.  Robbie told his kindergarten teacher today that I had a baby boy yesterday.  She emailed me congratulations and asked me the name.  It breaks my heart that Robbie wants to be a big brother so badly that he would make up stories.  He is such a sweet child and would make an awesome big brother.  I know life is not fair but I want to give my son the things he wants.  Wanting a sibling is not a bad thing.  I want to give him a sibling but so far my body has not co-operated.

After Robbie's 6th birthday we will try and start the adoption classes.

Please Heavenly Father, make it possible for my sweet boy to be a big brother.