Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Robin Williams and Me

I have never met Robin Williams and I never will.  So why the title?  Robin Williams has always been one of my favourite actors.  I love him both in comedy roles and dramatic roles, there will be no new movies.

Yesterday Robin Williams gave into his severe depression and committed suicide.  I have cried over this.  I have never cried over a celebrity's death before.  I talked to Sean about it tonight.  I wasn't really crying over Mr Williams death but for my own brush with attempted suicide.  I know how deep depression can deceive you saying that life is not worth living.  How you are alone in the world.   How there is no hope.  I was there a year ago.

I fought and tried to get help.  Getting help was not easy and it was really not until I intentionally over-dosed that I got the help I needed.  At the time of my OD I really did want to die as that was the only way I could see my pain ending.  I did not want to hurt Sean and Robbie but the pain was too much.  I gave into the pain, luckily I survived with little injury to myself.

I am not the same person I was a year ago.  A year ago I could not imagine that I would be where I am now.  It has not been an easy journey and I will always have bad times but now I have more skills to deal with the pain.

Mr Williams, I am sorry that you had to give into the pain.  My tears are not for you but I do wish you peace.

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