On wednesday as I was coming home from work I started to feel pain. Not a good thing! I waited at home for a bit and then decided to head to Emerg. I had to wait quite a bit and then I was taken in to see the doctor. I eventually got some drugs and blood tests. I am not pregnant (not that I thought I was). The other tests were good. The doc ordered an ultrasound and sent me home with pain meds. I had the ultrasound on friday and then had to go back to Emerg. The doctor confirmed that there was a cyst on the left side (the pain was on the right). Home with more pain meds. The doc and the resident both said that they thought I needed to go back on the pill. In other words, no more trying for a baby!
Sean and I had already talked about it. I knew what was coming but I still sat there and cried. Once I came home I cried some more. I am so sad. I know that having another baby would be difficult but I feel like my body has betrayed me. I hate having PCOS, it is so not fair (of course Sean reminds me that life is not fair). Someone (I dont remember who) said that things are better this way, another baby might have had health issues or whatever. I dont care! The baby would be mine! My heart feels broken. It is going to take so much time to get over this.
I take Robbie to the doctor tomorrow (4 year check up) and I am going to see if he can talk to me for a few minutes. I guess I will be going on the pill whenever my period decides to show up again.
Bleh!
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I'm so sorry sweetie.
I can only imagine how painful this realization is for you. I am so sorry.
Is that the only treatment for PCOS your doctor offered?! THere is SO much more you can do, even without medications (and there are other options besides the pill). I highly recommend "Taking Charge of your Fertility". I know many people who have had great success with it (for both preventing and obtaining pregnancy). Infertility is a hard enough road but when your doctor isn't even supportive it must be terrible!
No, it is not the only treatment offered. I am not willing to go though other treatment. I will be seeing my PCOS specialist in a couple of weeks but with other issues I am having I think I now also have endo.
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