Thursday, December 11, 2008

Feeling Over-whelmed

The last couple of days I have had anxiety attacks when it is time to pick up Robbie from daycare. I can't stand the whining and crying that goes on. I need to get my emotions under control to be able to deal effectively with Robbie. I hate that Robbie can make me feel so unworthy and useless. I know that the day program will help but can I make it until then? I have seriously thought about going back to Emerg, telling then that I can't cope with life. I am not suicidal but I do feel like I need to be in a safe place, home is just not feeling safe to me. I am ok when Sean is around but when I am by myself or with Robbie it does not feel safe to me.

I see my family doctor tomorrow. He has to fill out forms for me. I will tell him how I am feeling and see what he suggests.

I just want to feel better!


Jen said...


I wish I had some advice for you.

JennT said...

I hope that your doctor is able to suggest something to help sooner rather than later.

I watched my bf go through similar issues as you are dealing with, and I can only imagine how hard it must be to go through this and be concerned about Robbie too. She didn't have a spouse to worry about, let alone a child.


robin said...

Don't lose hope. I know how dealing with your children can make you feeling unworthy as a mom. My four year old has ADHD and it is soooo hard dealing with impulse control, his temper tantrums and his teasing and taunting of his other brothers. When I am tired and irritable myself it is easy to lose my own patience with him and then feel bad about myself. I just give myself another chance to try again next time. We aren't perfect and we do the best with what we've got.